Nathan's latest video to 'rock out' on" is Psy's  gangnam style vid is  a "Classic"  (very evident)

KIM does not acknowledge my existance and  completely stays away from home and children  and me more frequently. Mom Off the medications I am desperately holding on ( to what ?)

I just keep "keeping on" , life goes on (...)

 Mom says " all is lost"  ," go to holland"  . we're DONE .

What now ?

How much can  I take(...) , more than I thought I could ?.

The hope for a "normal life" is a distant memory .

Decisiontime is coming soon. (ugh)

My brain is completely fried .